I no longer want to be apart of this world anymore. Can someone make me think differently about life?

I suppose it all stems from my childhood. I was not a planned child. My mother wanted to have a child and my father did not want to conceive, typical. Anyways my mom stopped taking birth control behind my dads back and I was conceived through this lie. Of course there is some pretty weak b.s. i've had to experience in my life but there is no need to get sappy with that information its all goes down the same for the most part. The reason I do not want to be apart of this world anymore is simply because there is only one approach to life these days for success. "What does he mean?" you might be asking yourself. Well its simple really ill break it down a little more. College degrees, If you don't attend college for some form of a degree have fun working at Walmart or McDonald's for the rest of your life or something similar. learning bias, institutionalized information doesn't work for everyone not to mention the type of job you will have in spite of getting a college diploma is not be the kind of environment that is right for all people either . but like I said McDonald's or Walmart so that's choice in life we get. I unfortunately will never be happy with a job i can get from obtaining a degree ,i honestly have wasted lots of money and time trying to find something suitable for me, but i will also never be happy working at Walmart either so i guess whats the point if you will never be happy in life. If you tell people you don't like sports they will most likely look at you funny. Sports originate from war. I personally am not entertained when i spectate them. It all feels like the same bullshit over and over again with different scenarios, Im over it but i must keep reliving it because everyone needs their sports center fix. I do not want to get married or have children, most people also don't understand this concept about me. I think its because I truly think this world as we know is not for me. I can go on and on all night long but i think you get it. I will never be happy here and the more I involve myself with normality the more i want to die. I wish that this feeling of wanting to die would dissipate like everyone says it will in time but the problems will never fade so i think sometime soon i might have to. I'm over this world what's next heaven(just kiddin you can't go if you kill yourself, another reason i am trapped here) probably hell, maybe nothing at all whatever way it is it's one step closer to nonexistence.